It is just a LIFE.

First and foremost, Assalamualaikum.

Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I'm the most happiest on the earth. Life is like a circle, it keeps moving even though the world stop spinning. You might fall if you're stuck in the circle. Somehow, I'm really proud because I'm lucky to live in this precious world. I'm tough enough to fight with another sperm and now I live as an awesome daughter to my beloved parent.

When I think about my upcoming result, it's really haunting me. Absolutely fibrous. Aiming to get a pointer of 3.5 and above is not that easy unless you're genius, hardworking and you're confident to get it. I was aiming to get the best result before, but when it came to the end of semester all my intentions are died. Nobody knows what I feel, my real situation is. They just looked my facial expressions when I happy or sad. That's all. I have read a quote sounds ''aim low, reach your goal, avoid disappointment'' Aim low is easy to reach our goal, but it will make us hurt eventually if we are the lowest among others.

Then I refreshed my brain to know what was wrong with me, just need some spaces to know myself well. I have failed many times including in my spm, honestly. I mean, I didn't achieve what I've aimed. I'm lost. I have disappointed myself, everyone and most important my beloved mom and dad.

Some says, when you fell down you have to get up and same goes to me when I give an advice to anyone but I can't do it to myself. It seemed so difficult. I have tried many times to be the best but I'm always falling down till I took my spm. When I further my tertiary studies in a college I can understand a little bit about life. It's hard. So difficult to go through. We have to be strong to face it, not alone because if you're facing it alone you might fall down even worse. In life, we have to ignore about others criticize. To care about others feeling is hard too so why not you care about yours first. Just focus on what you want to get. Maybe it sounds like a selfish but sometimes if you want to succeed you have to focus on what you're aiming for.

Everyone wants to be a successful person, including me. Nobody wants to fail. You just need to plan it well, increase your effort in studying, not to forget keep praying to Allah and insyaAllah someday you'll get what you want. You'll never be a failure if you're still trying. There's always a chance and there's always a choice. Don't give up easily. Life is not that easy, it goes on. Note to myself and others.
Life is not a problem to be solved but a reality to be experienced.