Sadness :/

Assalamualaikum.

I have been hurted badly today :/ Not only today, but for a few days. Dear Allah, what I have done ? What my mistake I've made ? Nobody told me what I've done but my family seem hate me so much. Was that only my feeling or this is the real situation's happening right now? I hope all those things wasn't true.

Seriously, I feel like nobody cares what I do right now even I alive or die ! Especially my mom. Am I did any wrong towards you, mom ? Please, give me at a least a clue so that I might know and I'll try to make a change. My mom turns angry when she's at home especially when looking at my face. Dear Allah, I am begging you to give me some strength. I can't bear it alone. She acts so weird lately, always moody and sometimes I feel that I am not her daughter. I mean not her biological daughter. So sad :(

Everything I do is wrong ! So, please show the right thing. I am just trying to smile like others, but it's difficult. Really hard to do so. I keep crying the whole day including in my prayers :( She never cares if I eat or not. She just cares about my brother. Mom, please I am begging you I hate of being like this. I didn't take even 'a rice' in my stomach for two days. I've done everything you ask me to do, but why you still hate me so much. I know, I am not brilliant like your son that studying in IIUM right now. He's perfect for you ! But please, who am I if you are not giving support to me.

My younger brother knows my problem but he still a kid for me. So , he can't solve anything and he just can be a good listener. I hate of crying and I hate of being hating by someone. Mom, did I ask you many 'things' ? I think , nope. Perhaps. Dear Allah, Please give me some strength and I know YOU will always be with me.